It’s Tuesday and the middle of the day. As I roll the trash and recycling cans to the back of the house, a sense of displacement washes over me. The street is quiet, and suddenly, I can’t help but feel out of place. “The rest of the world is working while I am doing this mundane task,” I thought.
I started to question my purpose, wondering if I should be doing something more important, and meaningful—something that contributes to financial assets and has a bigger meaning. A hollow feeling sinks into the pit of my stomach.
But then, a moment later, I recognized the feeling for what it is: old patterns of behavior and belief rising to tap me on the shoulder. A little conversation with myself did the trick, reminding me that I was doing something important. I’m helping others, learning new skills, and enjoying interesting and fun pursuits. I remind myself that while increasing my financial assets isn’t a bad thing, it isn’t necessary. I firmly tell myself that my actions hold meaning for me, my family, and those I’m helping.
Sometimes all you need is to have a good reaffirming conversation with yourself when that feeling occurs. I guess you don’t erase a lifetime of wiring in a year or two.
