We define ourselves using so many different definitions. At times we have multiple ways of describing ourselves, such as our professions, whether we are married, whether we have children or even our hobbies.
Right now, I can still use parent, grandparent, coffee roaster, trumpet player, fitness enthusiast or friend. But I cannot use business owner, financial life planner (although I do on a part-time basis) or entrepreneur. I hope to use coach soon.
But down deep, I am having a crisis of identity. Because while some things are stable, internally, I am in upheaval. It isn’t constant and I am not in the throes of depression, but I am definitely not who I was a month ago.
My plan is to do more meditation and grab that ladder to climb down off my back a bit. I’m not used to this unknowing. I will also reread “The Parable of the Trapeze” and try to appreciate the space in between each handhold.
I am positive that this will pass if I am attentive to a few ideals:
Self Care, including fitness
Patience
Focus on Positive Actions
Curiosity
Willingness to venture out of my comfort zone
Who am I? Clearly, a work in progress.
